As I thought about my anxiety over the first day of urban farming, I asked myself “what happened to your enjoyment of novelty?”
I reminded myself to view this and other new experiences as novelty; exploration. To stop focusing on judgement. Others judgement of me; my judgement of others. Yes I was stupid and clumsy at the farm. But I found I enjoyed harvesting the cucumbers and Gida beans. That was a discovery for me. Gida beans are said to be tender and delicious. They are very long slender beans that look like long green strings hanging from the vines. I am going to learn so much about gardening. That excites me. And I enjoyed learning about organic farming. I learned about diatomaceous earth as a defense against insects that were destroying the greens. I learned there is a different crop problem every year. I learned a little about the americorps from another volunteer. That sounded like a good idea for Nate.
Farm work is hard. It is back aching work. I found I was more comfortable sitting in the earth for the harvesting. And I am barely strong enough to carry 25lbs of cucumbers uphill a hundred feet. The sweat was pouring off me and into my eyes, even though it was a very mild day; high in the seventies. That is how I got my exercise yesterday. The day was a wake up call to get more physically fit. And I found challenging myself to be rewarding. Next Monday I will take pictures.
Today I did go to Zumba at 8 am. It was fun and I got a great work out. Maybe tomorrow I’ll do yoga. I still miss having good friends, but I am enjoying getting involved in new things.